An introduction to signals and symptoms indicating onset of a PTSD episode and how to mitigate it.
Admittedly, this is a long post, but [c]PTSD is a complicated thing – so needs must.
When you’ve got PTSD, you are often very much mis-understood. In an effort to change the rulebook on how we are perceived when going into full trauma mode, Rogue Debby has asked for this to be published in the hope it helps anyone at all.
Same Face - Same Voice
The biggest problem Rogue comes up against, repeatedly, is that full trauma mode is weird, frightening and very reactive. As the onlooker you see the same face and hear the same voice… She wants you to know she has no idea what is happening on the outside, she won’t remember anything she said or even if the entire episode took place. You, however, see the face you know and hear the voice you know – and it’s very understandable to think it is the person you know in front of you who is in control of the situation…
It's not about you...
It’s natural to think the drama unfolding in front of you – is about you; and worse, aimed at you… if you don’t understand PTSD or trauma reactions. Rogue has been living with cPTSD most of her adult life. For most of that adult life she was unaware that she publicly went into full trauma flashback mode with dramatic repurcussions… until one day a friend plucked up the courage to tell her she was upset about a three hour tirade she was put through that left her, understandably in a terrible state. From that day on, Rogue had to re-evaluate everything she knew about herself.
The end result
Rogue now understood why she’d be ‘ghosted’ and stopped looking for answers as to why people found her extremely temperamental to say the least. Awks much? Yes, she says. In order to limit these incidents and toddler-like vicious outbursts, she upped sticks and took up #vanlife – ‘going rogue’ was how she got the name.
Understand and Adapt
The worksheet below is Rogue’s; Doctors, Therapists and the friends she still has, have found this useful and all at Rogue Debby CIC believe reproducing this may help others like her, work out their own triggers, stressors, visual cues and solutions from what she has written down about her personal PTSD reactions.
This post is dedicated to Mandy. A beautiful, courageous soul who deserves not what she got, but who made a difference.